We have words to explain every shade of grey. We have words to explain just about anything and everything.
That is, until I am really desperate to get my point across because I am under physical or emotional distress caused by one symptom or another - at the time that I need to explain things accurately, in a way that people will understand and react with empathy, my words seem to completely abandon me. I'm always telling my nieces to "use their words", yet I easily find myself flapping my hands around when trying to explain a particular emotion to my mum or a friend, with the only words at my disposal being "Fix it." or "Go. A. Way. Now."
I Just Can't Right Now
I find myself having to say no to a lot of people lately. There are numerous things (too many to mention) that I would love to do but just can't handle right now. I want to. I really do. I know it would be good for me to get out of the house and be with people and have fun. I want to be like a "normal" person and make plans and keep them. I want little outings to be fun and not fill me with dread. I want to be the person who says "Come on! What are you waiting for?!" as I beat you out the door.
But I just can't sometimes. I'm sorry. Maybe next time. Ask me again, please.
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