Peeing in a Cup

Like I said, I have had a really nasty couple weeks which have really tested my composure and my spirit.
I told my friend last week, "I'm going to cry a lot between now and the end of the summer, just so you're prepared for it." Of course, the odds of me crying in front of my friends are pretty slim; I've had a few chokey moments lately especially when talking about my eyes, but by large, I've kept the emotional meltdowns fairly private. I find it much harder for me to manage my life when I have to do it in front of people.
I seem to save all my reactions for the medical personnel. I was pretty even-keeled when this all started, but I just don't have the energy or emotional fortitude to keep it up lately.
Yesterday's fun was hearing about how I have a (now confirmed) kidney infection. Why this prompts me to cry in my car before I drive home, I don't know. I suppose there's just something about having to pee in a cup everyday for the next 4 days.

For the past year or so, the vision in my right eye has really deteriorated and I have trouble keeping my right eye from shaking. I saw another specialist last week who had me do a number of tests, some being quite uncomfortable. Apparently there's not much they can do, other then to continue some very expensive vitamins.
My five year old niece said to me a few days ago, "Auntie, when you go blind, I promise to take care of you. It doesn't matter to me whether you can see. I'll explain all my pictures to you so it's like you can see." Well, I started to cry. Who wouldn't? I love her so much.